Friday, February 19, 2010

The Phone Call

We received a phone call of news that is the beginning of an incredible but different journey for us Vaughns. And to take you back to where it all started to gather…here is the story and details about Logan Scout Vaughn. I had suspected something was different about our son Logan on the night he was born….there was something different about his eyes. I had asked the doctor if everything was okay….she said that he’s fine…healthy, nothing to be concerned about. We took him home and I still kept seeing some features that just didn’t seem normal to me. Now if you know my other two kids…Jada and Asher…I’m basically an incubator for my husband Jody. I have reproduced little Jodys and Logan didn’t look like them. I thought okay…maybe I finally had one that looks like me, and that is why he is different looking than his siblings. At his two month appointment the Doctor did her routine check up and was noticing some physical milestones he wasn’t reaching like holding his head up and engaging with his eyes. She mentioned going to a Neurologists, so we set up an appointment seeing why he seemed behind in his development. The Neurologists looked at Logan and said “this baby is perfect, he is a normal baby, 100 percent sure” We were relieved because no one wants anything to be wrong with their child. But he set up some blood work because he said he didn’t want to just blow me off because he believes in a mothers intuition. We got the blood work done and just had to wait. Meanwhile I switched Doctors and was at an appointment for Logan being sick. Mentioning my concerns she said what the other two Doctors had said...He seems fine, but I don’t know. Anxious about the test results I had asked if the Doctor was able to look up the results through the lab that we had gotten the blood drawn at. She said she would check and she’d be right back. My sister and I waited and as we waited my phone kept ringing, and I had this feeling it was Neurologist so I picked it up. “Is this the mother of Logan Vaughn? Doctor would like to see you asap…would you be able to come in on Monday?” I thought why if everything was okay would I need to be consulted…I asked questions and her answer, “I really am not supposed to tell you over the phone” I said, “It’s okay…we know he’s been tested…I’m okay with the results, I just need to know” She than proceeded with the news that made me weak to the knees, “Your son has Downs Syndrome.” I honestly didn’t know what to do for about 5 minutes. My sister just comforted and I just cried. The Doctor came back in with the results written in paper all the more confirmation that It’s real. And as most Doctors are more cut dry…she started to tell me that we need to get him in asap for a echocardiogram, therapy, consultations and many more words I was foreign to. “Please….I just found out…can I just call you…I’ll make all the appointments I need…I just need a minute”. Now I had suspected this, I had talked to my family and friends questioning “Do you think He has Downs syndrome? Do you see what I see? Doesn’t his eyes look different to you?” But after three Doctors all with no concern I started to believe that maybe it’s just me. Now we are all human, and of course it’s not the news you hope to hear but I wanted to share with you not only the story behind how we found out…but why this phone call is going to change my life in such an amazing way.

God makes no mistakes. His will for our lives is perfect. And I know that Logan Scout Vaughn is going to change my life, my families life and everyone around by just being him. I believe that we are here on this earth for two reasons…to love people and to tell people about God. Jody and I were talking about what holds us back in sharing God’s word and seeing Miracles happen. Lacking Faith and fear. The Bible says that we should have faith like a Child...and Logan will have that faith…and the Fear of rejection, fear of what people will say…Logan won’t care. You see I believe with my whole heart that Logan is going to change lives in such a unique way….he is going to teach us how to love…and to be free. I can’t tell you how blessed I feel to be one of the 400 parents that are entrusted with such a gem. Of course there is fear of the unknown, but we are going to take this one day, one step at a time knowing that this was all in God’s plan. I know that Jada and Asher are already the sweetest little kids and they will embrace this situation when they are old enough to comprehend…they will never know anything different than having an extra special brother. We aren’t thinking that this is going to be a breeze by any means…we know that this was a life altering phone call…but we are embracing it with open arms and are excited about the journey that we are going on! So please know we aren’t needing condolences…it’s totally not a sad thing…but an honor to have this situation come on us. As family and friends I wanted you to hear from us how we feel about the whole thing so you can know where we are and what we feel. Some of you weren’t at church this Sunday, or I haven’t been able to get the word out…so I figured I could get a lot of you on facebook and email. In fact it’s funny, I was telling my family…I actually feel sorry for Logan, Jada and Asher cause they have us for parents…they had no choice! It’s a crazy life being apart of our clan…as some of you saw the circus on stage at Logan’s dedication!

We just ask if you can pray for something…it’s health. That Logan will live a long amazing healthy life that we can enjoy. Not that God would change him…cause he is perfect but just to keep everything working okay!
Thanks for reading my novel!! I’ll keep you posted on this journey!

Missy Vaughn